Perth, 11 Nov 2021
I am feeling better today. Alhamdulillah, after 2-3 weeks it's been overwhelmed and tired. Either in or out of my body. Physically and mentally. But now, I feel more better, I have my energy back. Cause when I got my energy back and make myown full of glass, then I can give more energy to others.
So everything I had in my head lately its about thoughts. I my thoughts sometimes positive, but mostly.. negative. The negative thoughts that I had usually make myself growth and improve, so it can get get the positive result too.
One thing that I always had in my brain and heart is, I always wanted to be a better than anyone. Doesn't matter they are older than me, they are had lots of experienced than me, they are smarter than me, or whatever more than me. I can't just chill and relax, accept if we are human have different level, who is born first they will know first. But, I am a competitive person. I am eager to be more successful than other people. I have always been ambitious and fiercely competitive. I'm a very competitive person and I was determined not to be beaten. And thats my problem, thats my weaknesses. It could be strength as well tho. But, sometimes this character make myself get pressure and harder.
Otherwise, there is people appreciate my achievements, and I grateful for it. It's not for make me arrogant, but it's make me more motivated to be better everyday.
@SoHo Lane